Stalled - Peep back

People were sweating, even though the hall was centrally air conditioned. It didn’t help the climate outside.
Fair took place in some forsaken place. Made it pretty difficult for people to reach. Nothing could stop the young minds in participating in the fair. Yeah, the star attraction was JOBS! The mantra industry, Information Technology or Intricate Technicalities!!!! took the lead over the rest.
IT was the talk of the fair closely followed by Call Centers, charging on the neutral accent, “sweet” voice, drive in you to sell, fresh, motivated. Words, words and words.. right from A to Z. Whoever chose these, has done a good job, browsing the Oxford!
Anne wanted to see, what she could get out of the fair. Yes, she made it to the fair, where she realized the fair was more of an eye opener to her past.
IT, IT, IT… banners screaming out aloud… Java, Cobol, C++, Linux and what not!!! They were selling like hot cake! Developers, Managers, Executives, Designers…… whoah! For all the rightful slogging…… young and expectant faces making notes of what’s being offered from the live screen. Giving away their papers around to the prospective employers to make it big!

“I would like to take science group!. There should be no issues with the management. I have scored good marks. They give admission based on Half Yearly scores and fee to be paid after the Board results. They are offering me Computer Science.” Anne was hoping to join the science group after her 10th board exams.
“Science!!! What do you want to do?”
“I want to pursue education in Computers”
“You better choose Commerce, I can’t manage you in Science. Admission, Fee ….. No No!! change your mind!!. It’s not worth it even”
She never asked for the stars….. Something which is possible and which is easy to afford, by him.
She has never asked him anything…. Anything. Now this a life time call. Why ?? Why is that he is failing to understand her? No, that would be an under statement. He did definitely under stand her…. He is just playing with her feelings, now her life!

But!!! …. Silly girl, she is always stuck with this BUT!

If she had finished her course in Computers, she would be here with relevant experience applying to those, hot seats……

With a sigh, she made a round, browsing through the stalls, checking out what they have to offer and applying in a couple of them!

Those little decisions, which were taken, had changed the total course of her life! How come, when something can change the course of your life….isn’t under your control? How come, one doesn’t have a say on that? Or she missed her chance?
Why wasn’t the independency blooming then? What is the use when people get all the independency in the world, when it was missing, at the right moment! Independency to correct all the trivial mistakes!!

To look back… the ordeals…mental pain. Yes, she has passed out with flying colors. But more to go!!! Why would people have to learn the hard way… may be that’s life! LIFE ---- Living In Fullest Exposure. Isn’t FULL – Facing Unlikely and Likely events of LIFE!

Setting everything aside, she walks in to her office, Monday morning fully drenched in the rain to receive a shocking blow. She saw the news on the notice board.
“We regret to inform you the sad demise of……”
Everyone was working gloomy faced…. Starting the week with a pretty bad news. And Anne was all shaken up!!! It had a different degree of sadness for her, even though……..

She didn’t know what she expected and would she be fine to face it!
One of the department head had met with an accident and had lost his life. He shares the same name as her dad’s.
Wishing, her instincts would not come true…. Scared to face the facts… she started working.

Saying a silent prayer in her mind and trying to concentrate her wandering thoughts, she started reading her mails.
“Thank you for visiting our stall during the Job Fair. We would like to inform you that……….”

Dedication

Laughter. Anger. Sorrow.

They have been through it.
Patiently listen to the other and share “those” moments in life!

“When two friends have walked hand in hand through the shadow of a rainbow, their bond is strengthened and the colors of the rainbow and the world are now brighter, nourished by the loving support people, have one another during hours of darkness”

A beautiful article which she read, on friendship was concluded with the above quote. It conveyed so much of what Anne wanted to say. The way she feels about Tina.
She has always been there, to share the moments in her life. Share her anger, joy and sorrow.

Dedicated to Tina from Anne.

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"The time to trust is not just when all is calm.
The most important time to trust is through raging storm"

Trust. Faith. Patience.
Where are they?
Has she lost them totally?
Trust and faith in people and where is her patience level?
What is happening around her? What is happening to her?

For the past, half year she has been dealing with people, from broken relations!!!
Is that a coincidence or is it just happening or is the virus spreading?
It can’t be happening like this!
Is it that no one can handle anyone and end up being hurt?
What are we looking at?

Don’t people want to be cared?
Don’t they want to be loved?
Yes. She wants that too.
But, what did she do to keep her relation in place?
She could have done that, to help the situation….
But, do these “could have” help now!
Too late…..

Something which she learnt from her lonely days is treat people the way you like to be treated and handled….
Won’t this make people, more realistic and warm towards the rest and try to set things right.

She was astounded by the number of people she met.
Why are we doing this?
We fall in love; handle another person’s feelings…..
Find things aren’t working out….. for whatever reason that might be
And end up hurting ourselves and our loved one….. or, the one whom we loved !

Is it true that, these ‘boyfriend’, ‘girlfriend’ relations don’t last long, because they are bound to end after a year or so? Or did she hear that wrong? Or were the words uttered due to all the bitterness, inside ones heart?

Won’t a little of adjustment, compromise, understanding help to stop people reaching that “broken soul” stage?
Or is it something not possible?

People born and brought up in different environment and lifestyle, find everything perfect initially.
Later, when the interests clash…… thoughts and views are on a strike…… total cold war situation arises….. Can’t a little adjustment from either of them possible?
She has learnt from her mistakes……. But is it necessary for everyone to go through this trauma…..
But aren’t there people, who have undergone this…enough number of times in their life time? Why? Were they not handled properly? Were they those people who fall under the very sensitive and emotional category?
How is it to go through the same again and again to reach closed doors?
Definitely this would make them feel, every relation is just worth a year or so….

With her chest paining, she wished she could extend a hand to those who are in this mental trauma.
May be speak to them, make them realize what can be done now…. Instead of “I could have done that”!

With all these thoughts running, Anne was looking at a couple who were busily arguing about something in the shopping mall.
Few words, which drifted her to her thoughts, were
“You don’t understand me, what I am going through” she complained.
“Ohhhh , look who is speaking. You aren’t like before…. You have changed a lot… cant you see things are changing between us” he replied, crossing his hands…

Oh no!!!!! Hope they realize…..
Anne was pulled at her sleeves by Riya, who wants to get to the waiting car to see her boyfriend!